Here's an entry from last January. I was getting ready to start my spring (and last) semester at Whitewater. I was incredibly apprehensive, because I didn't want to go. Its funny my goal at the bottom of this entry, is still one I'm working on. I've made two pretty good friends though, so I can't complain.

Monday, Jan. 21, 2002 6:18 p.m.

Earlier today I tried to write an entry, but when I went to submit it, I got an error message and my long entry disappeared. That's what I get for opening up and letting all my emotions pour out in my diary. I'm going to try it one more time, and if it doesn't work then I guess that's a sign that emotions are best kept out of my diary.


I went and picked up my books today for school and realized how incredibly scared I am to go back. I'm afraid that I forgot how to learn or that I won't even be able to find my classes. As soon as I walked into the bookstore this rush or nervousness filled my body. I didn't do that great 1st semester (managed to pull a 2.25 out) and I'm afraid that it's only going to be a downward slope. My dad walkd by my room before and said to me, "Well are you ready? I expect only the best from you this next semester". Thanks. That's a way to put pressure on me. Well I have my schedule that's been sitting here forever collecting cobwebs, I guess I could post it on here:


M,W,F: GLOBAL PERSPECTIVES 9:55-10:55am

M,W,F: ENGLISH 102 1:10-2:00pm

M,W,F: BIOLOGY 140 1:10-2:00pm

Tues : BIOLOGY LAB 9:55-10:55am

T,Th : AMERICAN GOVMNT/POLITICS 12:30-1:45pm

T,Th : INTERMEDIATE ALGEBRA 2:15-3:30pm


My one goal this semester is to make friends. I know that sounds really pathetic, but its definitely something I really need. This lat semester I had so many other things on my mind that I completely sheltered myself from everyone. I pushed my roommates away and even people that tried to talk to me in class. Now I find myself pissed when James hangs out with his friend Matt. I'm pathetic! The only friend I have is James, and its compeltely unfair to him that I suffocate. I need a girl to hang out with. I need someone who will go shopping with me, and see chick flicks with me. I know James hates both of those things, but I put him through because I need someone to bond with. I love him with all my heart, but he's just not a girl. I try hanging out with my friends from high school, but its just different now. My two friends Laura and Erica are at UW-Madison and they're making TONS of new friends. My friend Betsy had a baby this summer and is engaged, she doesn't need to me anymore and it just feels weird when we hang out. I mean, she's got this little family now. Lets all cross our fingers that I can make some friends. I'm going to try really hard, I promise.


I have a huge headache and my laundry is calling me. Bye :)