Today has been a horrible day. I worked 3pm-7pm tonight and around 4:30 James came into work. He's never come in there before so I knew something was wrong. He had this sad look on his face and I knew something was up. He called me outside and told me the news. He violated his probation and would most likely be going to jail. Dammit. It was even something bad this time. He hasn't been going to his stupid drug and alcohol classes, because his insurance wasn't covering it, and now he's in jail. He thinks he should only be in there for 2 weeks, but his probation officer said he might be looking at provoction. That means he could sit in jail until August 2003, the end of his probation. Dammit Dammit Dammit. When will all the drama end? Just when things were going smoothly in our relationship this has to happen. Why can't they go pick on someone whose really causing trouble? Granted he did screw up, but if they provoke his probation and hold him for a year and a half that will be ridiculous. Not t o mention enough to kill me. I just need to focus my mind on other things and believe that everything will be alright, because it will, right? *cries* I need to stop that too. I've been crying like an idiot all night and I just need to straighten myself up. Think happy thoughts Jenny!