I'm going to write James a letter. Even if I don't end up giving it to him until after he gets out I want to let him know exactly how I feel about him, especially now that I can't have him in my arms. His mom called me earlier on my cell and told me he heard nothing from his probation officer, which means he could will most likely be in for another week. I held back the tears, because my parents were in the van with me. They think I'm being so strong through all this, if they only knew. I spend every night with my door shut, tears streaming down my face. I fucking hate this. I never want to be away from him like this again. I love him so much. I'm going to go start that letter. I want him to know that I want to marry him. I want him to know that I want to have his children. I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I'm going to help him get through all of this. Damn this song is making me fucking cry. *sap* Here's part of the lyrics:

"Someone told me
Love would all save us
But, how can that be
Look what love gave us

A world full of killing
And blood spilling
That world never came

And they say
That a hero could save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold onto the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away"

I'm out.