I woke up this morning very nauseous. Yesterday doesn't seem real. It was a dream, right? It was a very realistic dream which I can remember very well. If I call over at his house at around 2 he'll be home and he'll tell me about his boring day at school. If only I could live in denial. I feel very empty without him. My mom and I are going to go shopping later on and just hang out. I have to take my cellphone in to be repaired (woohoo 1 year warranty) and I need to return my books to school. I might even try to sell some. That would be nice. I bought most of them online for super cheap so I might even make a profit. One book I bought for $4.00 and it was for sale at the bookstore for $60.00, $40.00 used. I'm so fucking clever. I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you for your positive thoughts and comments, it means a lot to me. I feel like I have this new little life online where I can escape and no one judges me. Finally. I need to go get dressed and find something to eat. I'll write more later.